ZARTOO: Czarinna style

Just another History.

8:41 AM

Just minutes more to go, my first 21 years on earth will be another part of my history. I can’t believe it!! It feels like it was just yesterday (Okay. Sound so cliché. haha) when I had my balloons given to me by my forever friends and few hours from now I’m turning 22 already! Gaad! Time flies really fast whether you’re having fun or not. Btw, I don’t know what exactly I should feel. The fact that I’m becoming a year older again makes me feel pressured. Pressured in a way that I should have my own kind of living by now yet I am still here at my comfort zone. It’s not what I exactly hoped for. I told myself before that at this age I should be independent already but it seems like things are different from what I used to think. But anyway, to cheer me up, I still feel so happy and blessed for all the things I have now. They may not be part of the plan, I am definitely sure they are what I need and they are more than those what I wished to have! J

At the age of 21, I became fully aware about my life. This is where I finally started to think about my future. Compared before when I was still a student, it was totally different. I am such a happy-go-lucky one then. I didn’t think what is going to happen after doing something horrible or let’s say, deciding something base on my current emotion. Well, it’s my past and I learned a lot of things from it which makes me who I am now. I think, whoever this person I am at the moment, I am certain she is not the person she used to be back then. I’m wiser now and a lot better! J

Before I welcome another year in my life, I would like to call to mind some of my dreams that came true…

Sleepover with my favorite people on earth- Highschool Barkada!!
Visited Singapore.
Featured to an online shop.
Passed the board examination for Nutritionist Dietitian.

Well, passing the licensure exam has been out in my bucket list since I decided not to take the exam last year but it seems that God has it in store for me and I guess it is the reason why I did not get a chance to work in Sg. Oh well, I thank God for giving me this wonderful gift after all!!! Now I learned that no matter how much you try for something just to have it if it’s not yet time for you to have it, and then go on! Just always have faith in God. Always trust him. In times of trouble, that means God is still working! J

Now, I will welcome my 22^nd birthday with full of positivity and believe that soon I will have the things I’ve hoped for..

Kisses,

Czarinna

2013

De novo

12:40 AM

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Wish Me Luck, maybe?

11:24 PM

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More of Me

10:59 PM

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Heat of Summer Sunshine.

11:18 PM

Everyone's changing, I stay the same

I'm... a solo cello outside a chor-us I've got a secret, It's time for me to tell that you've been keeping me warm

Just sweet beginnings and bitter endings
In coffee city, we borrowed heaven
Don't give it back, I've never felt so wanted
Are you taking me home?

You tell me you have to go

In the heat of summer sunshine

I miss you like nobody else

In the heat of summer sunshine

I kiss you, and nobody needs to know

Now that you've left me, there's no returning

I keep comparing, you're always winning

I try to be strong but you'll never be more wanted

Will you make me at home?

Don't tell me you have to go...

Top: Gift from a Friend

Leggings: SM Dept. Store

Heels: So Fab!

Accessories: Thrifted

Hello Everyone! Happy Holy Week! How’s your vacation so far? Mine, well nothing is new. Still waiting for something to come in my way. Anyway, lately, been so busy applying for job online and now I’m anticipating for a call. I have so many plans at the moment and one is already down. I mean, that plan is left undone again. Urg. I really don’t know what to do first. I’m dying to have a work because it seems like I’ve been left by time. I think I’m the only person that is not acquiring change. It’s so heart breaking to see that most of my college mates are already working while me, hay. Tambay pa din, That’s why I’m trying so hard to pass my application anywhere that has a vacancy for a person Like me!!!! Hay. However, I’m still positive that sooner or later, I’ll get a job that really suites to my interest. In time, it’ll arrive!

So yeah! Sorry for being mellow dramatic. I just can’t contain this feeling no more. I hope you understand. By the way, enjoy your summer guys! Make the most out of it inspite of the scorching heat of the sun! Have you not notice it? The climate is getting hotter and hotter and I wanna get myself in the refrigerator! LMAO! Till then! Happy Holy week again! J

Here’s a perfect song for the season!!!!

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Anything I’m not

8:27 PM

I will never be, I will never be tall. no.

and I will never be, never ever be sure of it all.

But oh, why is the world so cruel to me?

When all, all I ever wanna be is anything I’m not.

Give me a break, a little escape.

I am so tired of being me.

I wanna be free. I wanna be new and different.

Anything I’m not.

I will never be, I will be you. No.

I will always be, I always be me I know,

but oh, even though I’m happy of being me,

I wanna get away from all this harsh reality.

-Lenka

Lately, I’m so hooked with Lenka’s songs esp with this song. It’s just that I can relate to the lyrics. It feels like this song speaks what my heart wanted to say to the world. Haha. I wanna be anything I’m not doesn't mean I want to be someone else, what I’m trying to say is that I want to be someone I’m not used to be. Really. I want to be anew. I want my life be transformed into something different like for instance, before, I’m the type of person who lives her life dependent. I depend to all the people around me especially everytime I got myself in difficult situations. This time, I want to stand on my own. Whenever there’s a problem whether it’s big or small, I want to get myself out of it without anyone around me. I desperately wanted to be matured in a way that I can provide all my needs and wants from my own money. I want to be Miss independent. Apart from myself, I want to have a change of environment too. I believe that in order for you to have a change, you also have to get away from the people you are used to be with, things you used to do and place you used to live. Agree? In that way, change of nature will help you not only to have a transformation but it will also make you learn new things. J BUT, not because you are in a situation where everything is new, you also have to change your friends and family. NO. You can’t change them but possibly, you can have more friends and family! It’s happier, isn’t it? So yeah! This is what I’m trying to do at the moment, doing transformation at a time and making a difference bit by bit until I change myself into anything I’m not. J